4 papers down 1 more to go.
Feels sort of weird, like what to do after the exams are over.
Study some more....?
Funny thing was during the preparation for JCTs, i could think of 10 other things i wanted to do right now, that was more important than studying but as i approach the end of JCT, just feels kinda lost.





Wanna go back to being me.
People change don't they?
But they don't have to.
Shouldn't have to

Labels: The Birds are so pretty

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Nothing quite contrast as well as,
black and white;
truth and lies;
day and night;
me and you

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I always thought separate was spelt with an "E" in the middle and not an "A". As usual i'm blogging because i am suppose to be doing work. AKA: THE FACT THAT YOU ARE READING THIS IS EQUIVELENT TO YOU DISTRACTING ME, hence to conclude inconclusively i am talking absolute rubbish.Thank you for giving away 60 seconds of your life to processing the above statements.

It is clearly obvious that months of blogging, i mean not blogging, has not done much for my social skills as well as my spelling.I do not blog because i find it rather meaningless to rant about daily events, which is ironical since i have been doing that for my past few post. Interesting events tend to involve people subjected to some form of humiliation. This speaks volumes about my interest. Hence, it would best for me to not blog about interesting events. If you fear for my safety you did encourage me to persist in what I am doing, however it is clear that not everyone, few to be more precise, are as concerned about my safety as I am.

By now you should be close to falling asleep, since you have not been able to squeeze any information out of my post about the naughty things i have been doing. Technically that would not be true since one of my favourite naughty thing is to make people read my overly long boring post in my bad spelling in all it's glory.

I am 17 year old boring,b-rocrastinating,b-leepy,b-aughty,b-itchy Ben. Oops the last one was suppose to be itchy, as I have yet to perform what is known by most hygenic people as the time-wasting, temporal-odour-removing cleansing ritual: bathing. ;>

Labels: S E P E R A TE

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I HAVE RETURNED! AFTER A LONNNGG TIME! I NOW HAVE A FACE BOOK ACCOUNT THANKS TO MY FRIEND! Nothing much to blog about... haha. All the best to your studies!

Labels: we are saying nothing in so many words

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Just finished the vertical marathon. 60 stories. FUN. HAHA. I want to thank God for seeing me through, and providing me with friends to finish it with.

Very encouraged by Padmini's comments, i shall post another poem i wrote in sec 3.

The Excuses for War

Peace!

You insist!

To prevent war!

Nukes, claiming you saw!

Revenge!

I’ll avenge;

The silent dead!

Every single innocent head!

Liberation!

From occupation!

Ironically they claim:

Not under foreign reign!

Excuses!

Absolutely ridiculous,

Are your claims!

Money’s sake, inflicting pain!

Price!

Is lives!

Families are broken!

Sons taken, Homes forsaken!

Prize!

All eyes!

On self profit

Manipulating facts as they see fit

Forgery,

And bribery!

We see lies,

Soon, this nation’s demise!

Bequeathed!

Unwilling gift!

Gold and ore!

Their nation’s pride sore!

These are the reasons for war!

Labels: Break my heart for what breaks yours

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TWENTY ZERO 8 DAY. ON THE 20TH OF AUGUST 2008. ZWEET!









ROADRUN 2008! mE, rOUND, Pang














J1 PAE that is passed

Labels: so soon

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Lets welcome ME back!

Me Com was away for about a month.
Now it's back, and i wanted to share with you all some stuff i wrote in sec 3.
Feel free to comment.

This one's called [ My "parent" loves me!]

My “parent” loves me!

As a child

I never knew

How to answer

How to be true

About a particular question

“Do your parents love you?”

During lesson

Why or should I say who?

Was to blame

No one in particular

Maybe I’m just being lame

But the teacher

Placed me in a spot

A funny thought

Questioning myself a lot

“Do my parents love me or not?”

I stood up in class

Unable to answer

Finally at last

I managed to stutter

“I don’t have parents!’

“Liar!” they said!

“I don’t have parents!”

To me no attention was paid

After school

I went home crying

Looking like a fool

I wasn’t lying

Why didn’t they believe me?

When what I said was true

That night I asked Daddy

What happened after he said: “I do!”

“We had you, breaking up, we had to!”

I sobbed: “So do you love me?”

“Of course I do!”

The next day, no longer blue

I sat in class

The teacher asked me

I felt a must

To answer the question again

I tired to shout

My Daddy loves me

But it came out

As “my parent love me”

It was wrong

It sounded wrong

Now I knew

My parents love...that’s not true

I kinda was thinking about single parent kids, and whether or not they can be truly loved.

Do not mix this up with children who lose a parent due to natural causes, here my primary focus is on divorce.

Mutual consented parting from both parents.

I was just wondering if the child would be able to grasp a concept of my father/mother loving me yet not wanting to be with my dad and me/ my mom and me.

Which all the more emphasis the church's teaching against divorce.

But what if your spouse was abusive? Pray?

See..thats me...looking all emo against the sun rise.

Well another post for another day, i've posted my prose writings in another link...

oh the address:
www.thesunlighthurtsmyeyes.wordpress.com

Looking forward to your comments

Labels: I close my eyes and fall into God's everlasting arms

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Floating on a net attach to the yacht in the Deep Blue Sea
My sis.
Sunset from the yacht
Monkey.
Live band: Dreamwaves
On the Yacht

My mom and sis
My Dad and Sis
My Bro and Sis
Self explanatory





God made it a wonderful holiday.

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Photos from langkawi

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My class did CIP today.
Helped out at a party for special children.
I was assigned Wei Kang who is down-syndrome but he behaves perfectly normal.
Haha, it was really fun. Truthfully.
Photos are self-explanatory.

Labels: keep your fingers crossed

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Cute right? The one with white stripes are White Lion Cubs. The two with stripes are white tiger cubs. Both don't survive in the wild, they can't camouflage so they get picked off by predators easily. The yawning tigger ain't got his teeth yet.

Labels: under the greying sky

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It's been quite a crazy year, with all the things God has done for me.

Finding out i got into TJ for PAE, no idea why that made me happy then, despite the VJ aspirations.. ha ha dumb dumb me..

Finding out AJAY was gonna be in TJ with me...totally weird, but grateful none-the-less. Since I'm not too good with mixing around, having Ajay for company really helped alot.

Then i got kicked out and it took Matt to convince me to go back. And i did my last minute appeal thing..to cut a long story short. It really sucked at some parts of this year, REALLY SUCKED. But you know when things are headed for the shit. God has long already fitted it into some "no-way-you-ever-dreamed-of-kinda-plan", and seriously i thank God for the crisis, for the suckish parts of life..because it just brings me closer to him, my family, my friends.


Now when I'm stuck here thinking of you, i realise God already has a plan that might not necessarily involve you, though hopefully it does.

& it's a good plan
definitely a good plan.

Labels: God's Plan

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It's getting a lil' too crowded


























Tadah! Teamwork!



The pictures cute hor?

Anyways i forgot to do a birthday post.
OK so on the 9th October 2008, Thursday.
In the morning everyone was acting totally nonchalant and i kinda expected it cuz of promo results. I didn't think anyone did have the mood. Besides i rather they cheered up more than anything else.

But something leaked out during bio, there was some tao pok thing going on.
Jun Hao's not very good at initiating this sort of thing. Good try though, Jun Hao.
& finally i was tau poked by Bryan, Kent, Jun Hao and Zheng Xian. It kinda didn't feel like a tau pok because they weren't really heavy enough and there wasn't enough people. But it was really nice that they remembered and had been planning and stuff.

So in the end i got like a red shirt and the" Faith" CD from Adeline, Cheng Nee , Ginn Min, Grace, Nic, Bryan , Kent, Jun Hao, Aver. Thanks Guys and Girls!
Really like the CD, i'm reserving the shirt till i get my sneakers.

Then Siew Chi and Neritta got me a PINK shirt, which i wore out last Saturday to Neritta's fantabulous Club. Thanks Neritta for inviting us. And thank you both for the shirt. Like the design.

Ow and Pinn Xian got me the book: Lil' Prince. Thank you
Cuz she thinks i'm lil and royal. More royal then Neritta, who is the Queen of the jungle.
haha.

& I got a 'Beginner's Bible" from Elizabeth. To help me teach the kids and stuff. HAHA. At first i though it was for me, or she made a mistake or something. Anyways thank you.

& The Sunday school teacher In-charge (i.e. Supreme Intendent) i think i spelled it correctly. Got me like a special bible verse book. Very good for when you are down and stuff. I Believe God will use that to speak to me.

Ajay sent me this weird Email. hahahaha. With lyrics and stuff and the link to a super funny happy brithday video. I might send it to you if you ask.. haha

So the rest of my birthday...i got wishes from Fiona, Dalilah, i think Jia Wen if i'm not wrong.... yeap... thanks guys. OWOW and ROUND! kristy and Woe xin wished me too!!! yeap yeap. I think i accounted for everyone already!

OW and the finale of the day! I got tau pok during track. All Shi Mon's fault!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks everyone.

& lastly must thank God! Cuz he gave me all you good friends, and the live i have.

Ow owow i almost forgot. I missed out Lyana. SHE mailed me this random funny card... HAHA. With wishes on it. My FIRST happy birthday-mailed-to-me-card!!!!!!!!

Eee... if i forgot anyone else by complete accident please tell me OK?

Ow and i just had super delicious COOKIE AND CREAM ICE CREAM CAKE FROM SWENSENS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! The cake is SHIOK! but playing with the DRY ICE that came with the cake was even more fun... haha.. i think i'm abit high from breathing in all the carbon dioxide!!!

And if you are wondering why there aint' no Pictures, it' cuz i'm big fat and too lazy to take any or put them up.. haha!!! next time k. Got to pee double U now.

Labels: can't wait to let you know

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I WANNA GIVE GOD ALL THE GLORY AND ALL THE PRAISE!

OH LORD YOU WORK MIRACLES YOU DO MIRACLES!

I give him all the glory for my results!
You are so awesome God!

Keep working hard everyone!
In all things commit to the Lord!

"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me" Philippians 4:13


All of you are special in God's eyes!
That is you you you you you you you and you ow ow and you tooo!!!!

Labels: send revival to us

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Sometimes you meet someone.
Then you think to yourself.
This one is worth the wait.
Then you realize oh shit maybe she already has someone.
And you feel SO totally stupid.

It's these kind of thoughts that tell you to be careful with those neurons in your head.

Not that you can control them.


Better safe than sorry?
Better to have loved and hurt;
than to never have loved.




we keep crying
whimpering to yourself
you sad lil' piece of shit

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