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Only almost
Friday, March 30, 2007
Living with others in mind

Those of us who are strong and able in the faith need to step in and lend a hand to those who falter, and not just do what is most convenient for us. Strength is for service, not status. Each one of us needs to look after the good of the people around us, asking ourselves, "How can I help?" That's exactly what Jesus did. He didn't make it easy for himself by avoiding people's troubles, but waded right in and helped out. "I took on the troubles of the troubled," is the way Scripture puts it. Even if it was written in Scripture long ago, you can be sure it's written for us. God wants the combination of his steady, constant calling and warm, personal counsel in Scripture to come to characterize us, keeping us alert for whatever he will do next. May our dependably steady and warmly personal God develop maturity in you so that you get along with each other as well as Jesus gets along with us all. Then we'll be a choir - not our voices only, but our very lives singing in harmony in a stunning anthem to the God and Father of our Master Jesus!

Romans 15:1-6

Taken from ArcaMax.
Doesn't this passage make you feel all warm and fuzzy inside?
haha!

Moving on , my essays needs loads improvement , and my grammar is getting real bad.
Let this be a challenge to all , not to hate and condemn those who "insult" you but to take it as a challenge.
I know perhaps i'm not the best person to say this , especially after the "wonderful" stuff i said about her , but i'm trying and i hope you'll help!

HAPPY WEEEKENDS EVERYONE!

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Probabilty of losing a head
Monday, March 26, 2007
how is it that we look at the mirror and do not compare the monster we see with others.

There i said it , i'm obsessed about looks , not plain narcissist( can't spell) but beautiful features on faces. I assure you that i'm not gay ( i hope ), but the fact remains that the first thing i do when i meet someone is to analyse their facial features up ,down ,left ,right, centre. I don't know if everyone does this , but i do it to everyone ( there again i'm not gay).

At first i didnot realise , but now it's pretty obvious , the main issue here isn't that Ben might be gay but moreover , Ben might be lookist.

Lookist is defined as someone who has discrimination or prejudice against people based on their appearance. In other words a damn ass hole. I think and hope i'm not the only one but i've come to the conclusion that more or less everyone is lookist to a certain extent, just as long as certainty does not stretch, we won't be judgemental b*******( no profanities on the blog)

and me...
I look at beauty on the outside
only because it's easier to find than it's better concealed counterpart
the more alluring beauty within.

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Someday
Friday, March 23, 2007
Someday , i will understand
God's whole plan
and what he's done for me

You know if you think about it realistically , if you exclude love , there isn't much left in life...
It will just be you , me and goodness knows who.
Forgive me for being random , i'm currently in an extremely confused state of mind.
My unforgiving tuition teacher has been chasing me for a pile of work , and i've refused to do so , that would pretty obviously explain my prescence here.
This is very much like some of us , always running away from what has to be done ,seeking a better time or place to labour out this task that bores the living daylight out of us , but there is no time like the present.

The work load is piling up but it feels good .
I know you must be thinking that the work load is really getting to me; but i seriously did rather something constuctive to work on , than airy, flighty, wishful thinking to occupy the devil's workshop.

Set your mind free , past homework , past friends , past love , past the world.
Let it rest within the cradle of God's peace , the crucible of his patience , and the expanse & expense of his love.

Set yourself right and write ( randomness again)

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我要快乐
Monday, March 19, 2007
HAHA, i'm not sure if the title will appear as it does here , but it's basically "i want to be happy" in chinese. Yeah, mock on..Ben's using chinese.

I think this is actually a simple yet honest opinion shared by all.
I've had to spent like the past few days dragging misery around , & it feels good to hook up with happiness now. I can feel the class gathering together , and a semblance of the class spirit.

The tag board is still MIA , and i can't fix the page elements thing, you have no idea how hilarious this is!

Well the happy stuff aside, some people should learn to control their tongue, there is absolutely nothing wrong with me sitting next to fiona. and i don't give a **** what people think, cuz well we are just really really good friends , live with it , and don't comment on it unless u happen to have some secret crush on fiona. ( HAHA...ok i'm dead tmr)

I think for some of us studying can still be an issue, but i found tt if u find something that you are really good at , and u excel at it , you will find studying less of a chore , because there is something for you to be proud of from it ( am i making sense) , i think you get the rough idea.

Work towards an actual proper "MAKE U WANNA STUDY" kind of goal.
Be it to beat someone!
To prove to people you can do it!
To just enjoy the fact that you aren't wasting your 4 yrs here in sec sch.

BTW wei jie if you are reading this: your hair rocks!( seriously , but just don't sing)

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thanks
Friday, March 16, 2007
Thanks Yi Min for the new blog skin...great amount of effort it took to convince blogger to spare me and her from suffering anymore.

There is no tag board, the picture is missing , the quote is missing , the about me is missing, but i like it the way it just is, not gonna mess with blogger anymore. The "fly together across the damn sky" is abit cheesy and all so just ignore it.

You lose some , You gain none.
I learnt that the hard way.
You don't simply gain anything , you have to actually fight for it.
& well i guess i just wasn't figthing for *IT*( for those who know) i was just waiting for it to happen, like WOAH fairy god-father or something. I'm still going to kill Lyana when i go to school on monday, but at least i learnt something.

I once asked someone whether God had a sense of humour , and yeah he sure does...he sure does. Commit all your plans to the Lord ( for those of you all who agree say hallelujah , the rest just disagree silently).

& btw Jewel is still right , follow your heart , just make sure your friends aren't pulling the heart strings.

Good Night People

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4/6 champion Captain Ball team for Upper Sec
Wednesday, March 14, 2007
Having finally won something as a class , i hope this brings our class closer together ; looking forward to the 4/6 gathering as well.

It's sad that it's so hard to mix religion and reality, it isn't the first time i've been blown off when i try and tell someone about the word of God. I mean it's a simple faith that has brought many so far , and yet people don't accept it.

There is so much to this faith than merely praying for a miracle everytime things do not go one's way. It adds meaning and a whole new depth to everything , life , love etc.

I just think that sometimes , before you blow the evangelist off , think just for a second , why he wanted to evangelise to you in the first place?

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WWOOOOTTSS
Tuesday, March 13, 2007
I'VE GOT A TAG BOARD!

I would like to extend my sincere to thanks to the great and wonderful liyi for doing the impossible.

Thank you for creating a tag board for my blog, few of us realise how important this stupid bunch of "html words" are. The few include Cbox which boast about how simple it was to create the stupid thing and in the end nearly destryoed my entire blog.

Just "copy and paste" this "html" into your "template html" and the next thing i knew parts of my blog were disappearing (not that there was much to begin with) , i got a shock of my life.
Well any ways it's done and i thank liyi.


On a more serious note , i'm back sliding again.

It's a happening again , the homework piles , the deadlines aren't met , the planner seems to be just for BLOODY show with no freakin' use.

I start to rationalize and compromise , everything's importance and priority is shrunk and soon discarded. Very soon i will end up demoralise.

BUT it stops now , some of us are in this trap , in this self pity hole , where we say, we try,
but reality didn't help.

We say the paper is too hard , too much i don't know , too little i can do , i might as well give up.

But that little , that much that you still know , built upon , like in my first entry with everything you are blessed with that makes you and your life beautiful , you had no reason , ABSOLUTELY NO REASON to give up.

In fact that fact that your life is so blessed , is the reason why you must and can never give up.
It is VERY hard i assure , harder than just simple typing these four words. It's not easy for me , it's not easy for anyone.

Don't BULLSHIT yourself to think that other people are smart , there is no such shit, we all start at the same level. So wake up and work out your way to becoming that person you want.
Don't dream people , i'm sorry for all those idealogical people out there, but singapore just cannot accomadate you...

Keep your dreams to 7 hrs a day of sleep , keep your focus to 17 hrs of reality.

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Meeting the parents
Friday, March 9, 2007
It went ok today...meeting the parents and all , the usual stuff but it was funny identifying which parents belong to which friend.

And there are some friends that really look like their parents. Well i'm all drugged and medicated, time to go to saner happier dream world n leave reality behind...

Good afternoon people.

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Meet the parents
Well the parents were meeting the teachers and the teachers the parents , we the students see both everyday , so i wasn't quite sure who i was meeting.

But i soon found out that i was meeting neither of them but Mr.Doom
There was alot of exchanges between my mom and the teachers which left her strangly quiet.
She didnot move to comment on my grades or anything which i felt was odd....

Well and i skipped camp (fortunately) , i heard it was really dreadful...
Well other stuff happen today, thats not too appropriate to mention here.

I'm halving my L1R5 to 9 ,A2 for englsih , chem and Bio ; A1 for Lit , A math and E math.
So much for a march holiday.

Still sick , just took medication , and the room doesn't feel too roomy anymore.
OK Ben is officialy nuts, good bye conscious world and hello saner , happier dream world.

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And on the seventh day...
God rested from all the works of creation he had done.

HELLO WORLD!

I was pushed from mundane, to monotony, to boredom and finally " to insanity & beyond"
So i decided to try and create a blog...i mean how hard could it be?
DAMN i was wrong... BLOGGER IS SO DARN ANNOYING!
I mean i don't hold anything against web pages but IS IT THAT HARD TO LEAVE LINES

Yes i wrestled the computer over spacing... yea i know poor me( i meant poor computer).
I spent half an hour trying to persuade dear blogger to not make my life so difficult.

If i was writing a letter it would look somewhat like this : "Dear blogger , i know due to economic restraints & the hard way of Singaporean life , you are force to skimp save and conserve as if the world is gonna end but could you do this tiny favour for me and leave 8 blanks between my age and my school. Yours Sincerely, A very annoyed blogger

Funny ,the things we get frustrated over , when that little kid in national geographic has no computer.

Strange things, that we argue over with our parents , when that guy in your school with an L1R5 heading towards 50 doesn't have a mother to argue with.

Absurd , the idiosyncrasies we fuss over , the same carelessness you harp about, that cost you your A1 , cost someone else a red line in his report book.
The same pile of books you left to rot on the classroom floor , someone else would put in the effort to steal it.
The same money you threw at your tuition teacher , someone else, had to teach a spoilt brat how to read in his own mother tongue , just so he could pick it up to make ends meet at home.
The same O levels, you are planning on scraping , someone gave up the oppurtunity to his younger brother.
The home you regard as a prison cell , some of us don't have that to return to...

There are a 100 & more beautiful things in life , so don't be "stupid me"
take away the S.ulking , the P.ms-ing , the M.oaning

rearrange " tu id e"

make some A.djustments , put in more T.ime , do a little T.hinking

Then you will have the right "ATTITUDE"

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